Writing Feedback Required

This is going to be short because as much as I want to revive this dead blog again (har har) I found myself stuck in a deadlock when it comes to writing, resulting in me unable to write something satisfactory enough, even for a simple post in my own blog, to my horror.

(If there is people who actually follow this blog, allow me to apologize in advance for being such an  irresponsible blogger, orz)

I mean, it's not like I ever lost a topic to write about; there's two pieces (!!) of writing posted in my Livejournal after the A to Z challenge last year (which I totally forgot to join this year until half way through April OTL), lots of anime (duh) and songs for that other blog, but alas no words escaped me.

And now I actually go the drastic way of trying to write a hella huge story of 100 chapter -utilizing the 100 fic challenge into 1 huge interconnecting fic instead- and joining yet another new challenge but at this rate nothing will come to fruition thanks to the said deadlock.

Thus, in order to pick myself up together I go and make a comment at dreamwidth's anonymous writing feedback meme, which explains the title of this post. My comment is linked below:

Anonymous Writing Feedback Meme

Basically it's the spot for writers who wants feedback and constructive criticism on their writing, and I swear it cannot come at a better time than this. So if you're interested, do kindly give some of your time to read my writing whether at livejournal or AO3 and leave a comment at the meme linked above. Words cannot describe how grateful I'll be for even one piece of advice now.

Thank you in advance.

Till then,

(/ _ ; )

~the pretty-much-desperate Heiji

Music of the Day: Beast - One 

Z is for Zero (and the end as well as reflecting on the AtoZ Challenge)

Surprisingly, I don't have much qualms on what topic to write about today for the letter Z. Though I did debating on whether to do this or to write on Zetsuen no Tempest and all the underrated anime -in my opinion- but this is the last one, the ending, so while I don't have other story to link to (har har) I thought I should close this with regards to the challenge; since there's high chance I won't do it tomorrow.

Or, the zero in the title above can be interpreted on many things, like:

• the chances that there will be zero post here on the course of May and possibly June (since I have to buckle up and write for that damn challenge already damnit).

• the zero feeling in me when I don't open the Blogspot to write a new post come almost-midnight tomorrow.

• the need to readjust all the writing here to MS Word instead and be concrete when I have gotten used to just type whatever that come in the usually blank (zero) mind of mine.

Thinking about parting with this almost-habit actually kind of hurts, somehow.

Y is for Younha's "Nothing" (or my favorite female singer proving she's boss yet again)

The song is playing but I can’t hear it
You and I, we’re in silence

Younha. (2013). Nothing

W is for Writer's Block Demon (or me waging a war on the entity that conquers my brain most of the time)

For someone who (allegedly) called oneself as a (sorta) amateur writer I am one who unfortunately have the long-period of blankness where I am unable to think of something remotely close to a concrete plot and that period; which is more accurately identified as having a block -is what people dubbed a writer's block.

While this is not something uncommon among people who writes, it is an almost constant presence with me when it comes to fiction writing to the point of me calling it Writer's Block Demon. Yes, caps for its a legit evil.

(As of writing this I still have no idea whatsoever sans a title -don't ask- and the deadline for the 1st draft of the challenge is just around the corner and yes, I'm sorta panicking right now)

V is for Vertical Horizon's "Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)" (or time for some blast of the past stuff)

So you sailed away
Into a gray sky morning

Vertical Horizon. (2001). Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning).

U is for Uncomfortable (or how the AtoZ challenge impacts me so far)

I'm taking a break from all the song recommendation posts as I can't really choose a song for the day (though I can always choose one from U-Kiss and begone with it) and this is me trying to reason with myself on the purpose of blogging and all -or simply put welcome to yet another episode of me ranting about the no-nonsense that is my more-often-than-not jumbled up thoughts.

(I try to make it short since I just have the urge to go and read some manga instead, but the day's nearing to close and I don't think it'll be wise to give in to the procrastinator side in me at this moment)

E is for Emo(tion)

Because I can't decide which is more appropriate to describe myself today.

I have bouts of mood swings at times; like, there are times I want to yell (I don't), sleep for 20 hours (I don't), cry (lol I don't), or just numb (this is common). Worse case scenario, I'll go on bouts of writing spree and thinking and create drafts and regretting myself because my WIP folder makes me feel mad and giving me the urge to delete everything (I don't).

It starts last night, actually.

C is for Candy Crush and Criminal Case (also Farm Heroes Saga)

Or more accurately described as the ones responsible of ruining my life on daily basis. I mean, I don't remember when I actually start playing those, (though Candy Crush is the one that start the chain reaction) but I'll be damned if they're not addictive as hell.

(As of typing this I got stuck on one level in Candy Crush -typical, I say-, waiting for energy to accumulate in Criminal Case and waiting for help to clear the roadblock in Farm Heroes Saga. Go figure.)

Perhaps it's not farfetched to say that these games are the reason I even open my Facebook lately. Like, my profile is filled to the brim with game notifications as statuses and my home page is even shaping up to be one, to my horror.

Which leads to me musing as I shaping up this post in my head; since when did Facebook become not a social network but a game platform? Don't get me wrong, Facebook IS a social network first and foremost, but to some people (read: me) it might be more on gaming and less on the socializing.

50 Things You Didn't Know About Me And My Anime

So there's this thing that seems like some sort of a meme (except not really) that has been circulating around among animebloggers; that is answering the 50 questions about you (me) in an honest way or something. While I don't consider myself as an animeblogger and this blog as anime-centric (since I'm random most of time and really, this blog won't suffer from the so-called 'lack of posts' or 'almost dead' situation if that is the case) just thought that I answer them, if only to at least post something.

...yeah, this is my countermeasure to make sure it WON'T happen that way.

I actually posted a new story at Livejournal a couple of days ago but I know better than to trust myself when it comes to typing or ranting so I'll post the link and rant about it and life in another post later.

Thus, let the long post questionnaire begin!