Writing Feedback Required

This is going to be short because as much as I want to revive this dead blog again (har har) I found myself stuck in a deadlock when it comes to writing, resulting in me unable to write something satisfactory enough, even for a simple post in my own blog, to my horror.

(If there is people who actually follow this blog, allow me to apologize in advance for being such an  irresponsible blogger, orz)

I mean, it's not like I ever lost a topic to write about; there's two pieces (!!) of writing posted in my Livejournal after the A to Z challenge last year (which I totally forgot to join this year until half way through April OTL), lots of anime (duh) and songs for that other blog, but alas no words escaped me.

And now I actually go the drastic way of trying to write a hella huge story of 100 chapter -utilizing the 100 fic challenge into 1 huge interconnecting fic instead- and joining yet another new challenge but at this rate nothing will come to fruition thanks to the said deadlock.

Thus, in order to pick myself up together I go and make a comment at dreamwidth's anonymous writing feedback meme, which explains the title of this post. My comment is linked below:

Anonymous Writing Feedback Meme

Basically it's the spot for writers who wants feedback and constructive criticism on their writing, and I swear it cannot come at a better time than this. So if you're interested, do kindly give some of your time to read my writing whether at livejournal or AO3 and leave a comment at the meme linked above. Words cannot describe how grateful I'll be for even one piece of advice now.

Thank you in advance.

Till then,

(/ _ ; )

~the pretty-much-desperate Heiji

Music of the Day: Beast - One 

Z is for Zero (and the end as well as reflecting on the AtoZ Challenge)

Surprisingly, I don't have much qualms on what topic to write about today for the letter Z. Though I did debating on whether to do this or to write on Zetsuen no Tempest and all the underrated anime -in my opinion- but this is the last one, the ending, so while I don't have other story to link to (har har) I thought I should close this with regards to the challenge; since there's high chance I won't do it tomorrow.

Or, the zero in the title above can be interpreted on many things, like:

• the chances that there will be zero post here on the course of May and possibly June (since I have to buckle up and write for that damn challenge already damnit).

• the zero feeling in me when I don't open the Blogspot to write a new post come almost-midnight tomorrow.

• the need to readjust all the writing here to MS Word instead and be concrete when I have gotten used to just type whatever that come in the usually blank (zero) mind of mine.

Thinking about parting with this almost-habit actually kind of hurts, somehow.

Y is for Younha's "Nothing" (or my favorite female singer proving she's boss yet again)

The song is playing but I can’t hear it
You and I, we’re in silence

Younha. (2013). Nothing

W is for Writer's Block Demon (or me waging a war on the entity that conquers my brain most of the time)

For someone who (allegedly) called oneself as a (sorta) amateur writer I am one who unfortunately have the long-period of blankness where I am unable to think of something remotely close to a concrete plot and that period; which is more accurately identified as having a block -is what people dubbed a writer's block.

While this is not something uncommon among people who writes, it is an almost constant presence with me when it comes to fiction writing to the point of me calling it Writer's Block Demon. Yes, caps for its a legit evil.

(As of writing this I still have no idea whatsoever sans a title -don't ask- and the deadline for the 1st draft of the challenge is just around the corner and yes, I'm sorta panicking right now)

V is for Vertical Horizon's "Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)" (or time for some blast of the past stuff)

So you sailed away
Into a gray sky morning

Vertical Horizon. (2001). Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning).

U is for Uncomfortable (or how the AtoZ challenge impacts me so far)

I'm taking a break from all the song recommendation posts as I can't really choose a song for the day (though I can always choose one from U-Kiss and begone with it) and this is me trying to reason with myself on the purpose of blogging and all -or simply put welcome to yet another episode of me ranting about the no-nonsense that is my more-often-than-not jumbled up thoughts.

(I try to make it short since I just have the urge to go and read some manga instead, but the day's nearing to close and I don't think it'll be wise to give in to the procrastinator side in me at this moment)

Q is for Quest (or my journey towards writing a post for a letter Q)

In all the days I'm writing a post for the AtoZ challenge thus far, none had given me as much headache as today; for the letter Q.

I can just screw it and simply wrote 'Q',  but I'm not sure if it'll break any rule or anything, until a random search at Wikipedia states that quest is a journey towards a goal, and in a way this post might essentially be about that damn letter anyway, thus quest it is.

Call me cheating my way out with a random post, for this will be nothing but simply me describing my weird line of thinking outside of the box (or, outside of the right vocabulary because that's how I roll) but I'll say it's the perks of having the ability to twist things up, ha!

P is for P-Type (feat. Gray)'s "Love, Life, Rap" (which is hella awesome it's the first rap song to get a post in this blog)

Love, life and rap
All I want is one mic

-P-Type (feat. Gray). (2013). Love, Life, Rap.

L is for Linkin Park (and the ups and down of being a fan a.k.a Guilty All the Same makes me rant)

If you follow/know me long enough, you'll know that Linkin Park is a huge band for me. It's literally the first band I really am a fan of since I can remember and Hybrid Theory is the first album I really get obsessed with, thanks to the introduction did by a classmate way back then. Like, more than a decade ago, yeah.

Since then I tried to closely followed the news of the band (I have a friend back in high school who talked to me at first and become close afterwards because of our shared intense-fangirling of the band. Go figure) but I still am late in all things Linkin Park, somehow.

Because I just found out that the band's having a new album coming this June and there's a single released last March and available on their Youtube page and it really shows how I'm really not that much of a Youtube person because I just listened to the song for the first time despite subscribing to the said page. Obvious fail is obvious. OTL.

H is for Haikyuu!! (or how sports manga owns my life)

I'm currently in the mood of going through sports manga like my life depends on it or something. Like, I can't even read other manga that is not sports-oriented because I can't seem to put an ounce of interest in them, to my horror.

Currently I'm in deep with Daiya no A/Diamond no Ace (or the one baseball manga that single-handedly ruins my life so hard I go and read all the spoilers -for the record it's still ongoing- because my heart can't take all the feels OTL) and Haikyuu!! which is the first sports manga I read about volleyball. 

It all starts when I re-read Eyeshield 21 (which is about American football of all things and really, Murata Yuusuke-sensei's art is godly) and goes on to read the whole volumes of the legendary Slam Dunk (basketball) in record time. Needless to say, with my tv also conquered with sports (there's the MotoGP or F1 race on the weekend, among the sprinkler of other things, like badminton last Sunday) it comes off as no surprise that my interest is heavily influenced by it.

Still, there's a reason why Haikyuu!! is the main topic of the day; the anime has just airing the 1st episode for Spring season anime and it's set to break the iron rule of sports anime watching in me; weekly-watching. The rule was set simply because I can't handle the weekly cliffhanger; Giant Killing killed me on weekly basis when it was airing before.

G is for Glasses (a.k.a THE most important object in my life)

I was mulling about today's topic and letter, and was half-convinced to write about the manga and anime Giant Killing, but I need to re-read the whole thing again and I don't even remember half the character's name either so that's how I come to write about glasses, of all things.

But then, I'm a glasses person. Like, I've been wearing it since I was 8 and I spent more than half of my life having it perched on top of my nose. I don't remember how many exactly I've owned up to this point, but last night while lazing about and talking to my sister on the phone I wound up taking it off and sorta hit it or something, resulting in one of the lenses to fall off the frame.

Needless to say it freaks me out so bad.

Luckily I got an old one for emergency (though the lenses are scratched up hard from long period of usage; yet still usable) so now I'm typing this while the current glasses still in the case because I forgot to borrow the very-small screwdriver from my dad and fixed it.

Or, chances I'll ask him to fix it for me later.

E is for Emo(tion)

Because I can't decide which is more appropriate to describe myself today.

I have bouts of mood swings at times; like, there are times I want to yell (I don't), sleep for 20 hours (I don't), cry (lol I don't), or just numb (this is common). Worse case scenario, I'll go on bouts of writing spree and thinking and create drafts and regretting myself because my WIP folder makes me feel mad and giving me the urge to delete everything (I don't).

It starts last night, actually.

C is for Candy Crush and Criminal Case (also Farm Heroes Saga)

Or more accurately described as the ones responsible of ruining my life on daily basis. I mean, I don't remember when I actually start playing those, (though Candy Crush is the one that start the chain reaction) but I'll be damned if they're not addictive as hell.

(As of typing this I got stuck on one level in Candy Crush -typical, I say-, waiting for energy to accumulate in Criminal Case and waiting for help to clear the roadblock in Farm Heroes Saga. Go figure.)

Perhaps it's not farfetched to say that these games are the reason I even open my Facebook lately. Like, my profile is filled to the brim with game notifications as statuses and my home page is even shaping up to be one, to my horror.

Which leads to me musing as I shaping up this post in my head; since when did Facebook become not a social network but a game platform? Don't get me wrong, Facebook IS a social network first and foremost, but to some people (read: me) it might be more on gaming and less on the socializing.

A is for And The Looking Glass Falls (and intro to the AtoZ challenge)

Apparently there are times that I wound up forgetting the fact that this blog actually exist (to my horror). Of course, I can make 1001 excuses on why I'm not updating and I swear it will all be plausible in so many ways but that still didn't change the fact that this. blog. is. dead. (sorta).

So in order to revive this place from the oblivion, I'm participating in the AtoZ blogging challenge where the blogger is required to blog everyday sans Sunday starting on 1st of April (which is today, yeah). You can check out the details by clicking on the badge at the sidebar.

(I mentioned my intention on doing this to my 'editor' imouto and I'm pretty sure she's half-convinced it's not going to work; but I need to get a move on or I'm forever stuck in limbo thanks to the disaster that is last year's NaNoWriMo. For the record I don't open the MS Word since. Damnit.)

Anyways.

It occurs to me that I'm yet to put in a link to the last piece of completed work I ever did (and the only one last year OTL), and it just so happen it starts with A, so what better way to start the whole thing by doing so?

And The Looking Glass Falls

The Best of the Best of Korean Music in 2012 (according to MY standard)

So I made a draft for this post way back in January on MS Word because of writer's block and in some sort of a weird twist of fate, found it when I am hit by writer's block (again). Sure, it's already May 2013, and in K-pop, stuffs from 2012 is already irrelevant (sorta), but hey, we can never have enough of list in our lives (at least, mine is), and maybe this can be some reminiscent sorta post? Haha! Though it's more like I feel that it's a waste to throw it away orz

So why an award (kinda) list? That’s because;

1. I can cross-post this to that other blog because I'm lazy like that. 
2. Korean award always irks the hell out of me because of the no attendance no award policy (what?)
3. Most online award are filled with fan votes and it pissed me off when the better candidate losing out just because the fandom is smaller OTL

So way to fix this? Make my own! Like a boss.

Bear in mind I’m no music personnel (and I seriously can’t tell one weird tone to another) so this list is purely created from how much of the song/artist I’m enjoying for the past year. You don’t have to agree with me on anything from this, but it sure is good if I can share and introduce some songs you may never know before. So yeah.

Now, on to the list!

Holding Onto Gravity, That Other Blog, And Me (Ranting Like A Boss)

I mentioned before on how my interests and mood can be divided into three and all, but I've come to the point where there's an addition to that; nothing. Yes, as in none of the three manage to make me focus on them. Sure, I still follow on music (or rather, keep on rediscovering and repeating songs from way back or something), I still don't give up on writing (the editor was thisclose on exploding upon the discovery that is my draft folder), I still watch anime (though it's been years since I last download the latest episode of currently/aired anime -end up falling into Ghost In The Shell fandom instead), and I still read manga (which mostly are still ongoing and stops at freaking cliffhanger and make me rant endlessly like what), but it's just come to the point where I don't do those obsessively like I usually did, and the possibility of me letting them go or something is so so horrifying I end up upgrading/messing with the html on Livejournal's master list and make changes here and there on this blog.

Which leads to me (sorta) rediscovering things and this (totally, definitely will be long) post is my attempt to make peace with myself and rekindling all those passions (a.k.a me going to rant and justifying myself so yeah you might not want to read this). Never mind this is my first post in a long while, and the first in 2013 no less; I sincerely think we have establish the fact that I'm characteristically late with everything by now, so yeah.

Before you click the 'x' button though, here's the link as per usual.

Holding Onto Gravity